the sun does not shine out of your ass.

u know, there are some people who you may know for a very very long time. And they start to change – not necessarily for the better, either, And they do not see that change in themselves – but everyone else around them does. and u are the only one, amongst this group of friends, that has the balls to tell this particular person that she has changed – for the worse. And now she bitching and moaning about how no one pays her attention and blah blah, and other people should be honoured that their emails are answered. WTF.

You know, if you want people to be nice to you, don’t go around criticising things that are not yours to criticise. Don’t expect people to be kind to your feelings when you don’t give a flying f**k about theirs. Just because you are friends for a long time does not mean that you can expect people to fall over their feet giving you attention. You chose the life you lead now. And you are the one who left, knowing full well what to expect in terms of support/lack thereof.

Your choice. Suck on it.  

Sumthin’ good, finally.

Saturday dawns:

• a little cuddling canoodling with the other half always good, as is the talking afterwards. he told me his plans, which included work on the other side of the world for the next six months.  Which is bad cos I will not be able to see him for that time; but good because it means steady $.
• an early 30th birthday celebration, organised by friends and held at my house. Good drinks, chocolate cake, old movies, midnight swims make for a good night [thanks y'all - and you know who u are! ]

And last night, we went out to dinner, him and I. And he talked about a lot of stuff playing on his mind. and the best bit was when HE (who is so wary of any sort of PDA) grabbed my hand as we were leaving the restaurant and held it all the way

Days like these are in short supply.

more please. =D

I wanna throw something.

preferably in the direction of a certain ex-British Colony that has returned to its Chinese roots.

I mean no harm in relation to the general population, of course, but to a certain population in a certain building that work for my employer. OMFG, I was losing it. They wanna fix something, but they seem to think that I have all the tiem in the world to fix it. that it has to be done now now now. that you can’t put it off till later, it’s not possible, even after i took three days to explain to them IN PERSON. and the same questions are being asked again.

WHAT WAS THE POINT THEN, PLEASE TELL ME?

And here I am trying to get off a publication to the printers that absolutely will not leave my table because of everything that could possibly go wrong and when it seemed that all was done, it seems that another thing happens. (And now I spend my long weekend trying to fix this bloody problem.) So these idiots are hounding me, and I lost it, in an email that could barely contain my frustration. I wanted to yell, don’t you get it you stupid b***h?!? Have you not been listening to what I have been saying?

CAN DIE, I TELL YOU.