Of good friends and (way too much) chocolate :P

There really is no substitute for good friends.

So I met up with this gf that I have not seen in ages (she was working in the UK), but she and I were quite close back when we were (both) studying in Melbourne. And we talked a lot – including what happened to F. And of course, she cautioned me not to place too much hope on the whole thing – and she asked what was to become of it anyhow. True… LDRs can’t be a permanent thing, unless one person moves over.

And today: met up with my gfs again, and we had a Chinese dinner that somehow didn’t seem to satisfy our appetites. (we did wait for 30 minutes for our table, and by then we were REALLY hungry). So we moved on to dessert… and because we felt dinner was lacking, we ordered one dessert EACH. Ridiculous. We usually order one or two and we all shared. So as a result, we managed to do the impossible: we seriously overdosed on chocolate. I honestly never thought it possible, but we all felt sick after that Heh. So let it be a lesson to all concerned: do not give in to the temptation of being a chocolate glutton. Because u will end up feeling u can never eat chocolate again - like how we are (or I am) feeling now.

Anyhow, the girls heard the whole story of what happened with F – and they could understand how thoroughly confused I am. Of course, one of them was understandably sceptical, she thinks it’s all an act. I am well aware that he could indeed be acting. But I doubt it, you know? Don’t think that I am holding out any hope of re-kindling the relationship – I am not. I just find that there is a marked change in his behaviour, and it’s stirring up memories for me. Which can be a good or bad thing. We’ll see.    

Whew…

The New Job  

Information overload.

I have so many new things being thrown my way at the moment that I feel overwhelmed. But it’s a good thing that the people around me are nice, and they are willing to let me learn and willing to let me eff up along the way. Which still makes me feel bad because I am taking time away from them, and it’s not on. I know that I don’t really have to feel bad, right now it’s really OJT, and you really can’t learn from theory alone. But I think I will like this place. So far, it seems good. Then again, it’s only day 3. Heh. Stay tuned; I may rant once more. 

Men

You know, after going on about F and X lately, I decided that I should have a separate category for men in general. Like DUH. I shoulda done that like eons ago. Anyhow, so I have been reflecting on what happened between me and F; I know I shouldn’t, but I can’t stop myself. It’s just too weird, you know?

So anyhow, I am now an associate member of the local uni’s society (only associate because I am an overseas member). Because of that, me and my referee get loads of F&B vouchers to spend – so he took me and a couple of more friends out to dinner, including this young guy (my age) from Myanmar and is extremely well-spoken, well-mannered – and quite cute too. Yum But I don’t think he would be interested in me in that way. My bro (who was also present as a new member) said, you never know….

Then tonight, I went along with my mom to dinner with her client. Who happens to be young(-er) than her usual clients. And cute. And when he shook my hand goodbye, sort of gave my fingers a little squeeze. Mom thinks he bats for the other team; well, my gaydar did not go off. Or at least my gaydar was confused. Our gay friend (who was also present) was quite convinced that he wasn’t. There may be hope yet.

So 2 good dinners, 2 cute guys. Mmm. Good week so far ;) 

ugh.

argh!!!

i hate it when everything goes wrong, when you want it to go right.

like today – my first at work. i am at the bus stop ridiculously early. and the bus is late. very late. like HALF AN HOUR late. and then it breaks down. so i stagger into work (on my first day!!!!) 20 minutes late. What an impression.

buggerit.

dammit.

^&*%!!!!!