no need to panic.

so the truth is that K had a relapse. and ended up back in hospital. which explains the silence. and he ran out of credits for the phone, and obviously didn’t feel like getting out and getting credits, nor did he feel like communicating, but he knew i was getting panicky or sthg cos he sent me an email to tell me this. which is a good thing, i guess. but why must guys insist on doing this macho thing of, i can handle this myself? maybe they can, but dammit, if you are sick enough to be in hospital, then you are seriously sick and that might actually mean that u may need some help.

men and their macho shite. good god.  

Tired

…of waiting wondering thinking why you suddenly don’t answer my messages, my phonecalls.

Irritated by your sudden non-response, the huge silence that pulses.

Pissed off with myself for being irritated by the non-response, by the non-answering of the phone. Knowing I should not bother, but yet I still do.

Wanting to draw you out, but you retreat even further.

Just tired of being screwed around with.

Tell me what the hell you want from me. You said that the girl has to have a lot of patience to put up with u. So are u testing my patience now?
 

Just a post

It’s been madness the lasr week. Haven’t had time to breathe. Work, of course… to the point that almost every night for the last few nights, I have had to bring work home. And now, for the first time in a week, my night is free to do as as I wish. Which, at this point in time, is prolly have a blissful night’s sleep

A gf (one of those overseas) came back for a brief spell, and we girls managed to meet up for lunch on Sunday. And then headed off to Settler’s Cafe, where they have tables set up for pple to play board games. It was kind of strange when we got there, because we had no idea what we wanted to play!  We stayed for two hours and we played Taboo mostly… we are always so used to word games. I think next time, we have to have something in mind before we go there! So embarrassing, having someone come over and instruct us and suggest what we should play.

All seems to be quiet on the love life front. K’s gone silent; he was really sick last week, so I can’t blame him, really. I am trying to draw the guy out and basically “kill” him with kindness by being really patient and being the perfect girl, generally He did warn me that it would take a lot of patience; I guess it’s the “test” now. 

I need a life outside of work! (And I need to stop analysing K )