why do i do this la

i think this is a different soft of S&M that one inflicts on oneself: when you know that a relationship might not be the best for your health and yet u hang on. why la.

so he has finally made contact; he’s in PNG. the internet access there is less than ideal so hence his silence. i ’scolded ‘ him for going MIA and making me go nuts. He apologised for going MIA, but he said he needed to be away. understandable. he says he is going to force himself to enjoy the year; but he has already told me some bad news that affected him sigh. When will the shite end?

the news is that he might be in the region again next week. and I told him to let me know in advance so that i can engineer something. He said it’ll be good to feel like a king with his queen  it’ll be good to see him again.

cross my fingers.